Missing Friends

I was standing outside the school today waiting for K, and everyone seemed so moody. For some reason I dont feel like I can approach these people. There is a couple of women I talk to who I used to know, but it's not the same as my 'best friends' J & C that I left behind in the USA, even if/when they move back to the UK they wont live in this area. Just feeling like I wont ever have friends like that again. And it's a sad feeling. I keep saying to myself, it's ok, I'll just concentrate on my business, but really I crave some kind of friendship. We'll see....

K seems to be making friends, she seems to be happy with her school, and her teacher says she's doing well. The house is sooooooooooo quiet during the day now! C has no one to fight with, so there's no screaming, it's actually pretty nice, although for some reason I DO still miss her.

I've been thinking today, all day, about my online friend J having a funeral for her son. This has bought tears to my eyes many times today. You cant help but think "how would I cope?" and that makes me cry even more. Life sucks sometimes. All I can do right now is pray for my friend and her family, and pray that somehow they can move past this pain, a pain that will always be there in their heart.